If You Are Thinking About Killing Yourself, Please Read This First

Lately I find myself feeling more depressed, just stuck in this confusing matrix that Covid-19 has made even more scary. On top of that I just came back from one month of intense meditation and self-study at the Yoga Ashram and adjusting to the return to my real daily life has been a challenge.


At one point, I was experiencing very dark thoughts, including the consideration of suicide. It wasn’t so much about ending my life, but wanting to kill the pain I felt within me so badly that I considered ending my life in the process. Instead of entertaining these dark thoughts, the rational step I chose to take was to call my therapist, Dr. Jennie and we had a much needed session.


Here is a crucial part of our conversation:


DK: “Earlier today I wanted to kill myself. I